Anxiety is the tense state between that which you are and that which you should be. People are bound to remain anxious if there is a “should” in life.
Don’t try to justify your choices. You don’t owe anyone explanations and excuses when it comes to your life. If you like a dress, wear it. You don’t have to explain that it’s cute because it has pockets. If you want to get a tattoo of something then get it, you don’t owe anyone its meaning. Make peace with yourself and don’t ever let someone make you feel bad for being you.
It’s hard to be yourself, when you don’t know who you are.
You are not going in circles
You are making progress in a spiral. You do come back around to where you were at the start, since recovery and healing take time, but every time you come back around to that point you’re a little higher up because you’ve got more experience, more knowledge, and more strength.
You ARE making progress